Protector

She had a strong sense of fairness and justice, and she’s very compassionate towards women and kids. Although she couldn’t have kids of her own because of physical issues. She has been haunted by depression. Sometimes she couldn’t feel her body. 

She talked with her parents a lot. She said sometimes she cried after she talked to her parents over WeChat and they told her the same happened to them. They always took care of her attentively over everything during her whole childhood, and always worried about her safety, despite her bad temperament. 

In the trance she travelled through several lifetimes, from different eras, continents and races. Each time she was born in a family with the same father and mother as she has now, and each time she died young, from accident, disease or suicide. She sighed, “ No wonder they really care if I’m safe and sound!” How can we understand the pain that parents have to endure to see a child die before them!  Tears were running down from her face -  She said the same feeling every time they talked over long distance, the feeling of she owed them her life. I told her that feeling is called “Love”, a different expression of love than most adults know between men and women, a desire to give. She pondered and signed. I like to help my clients feel the touch of love.

Next moment she went back to a small village, dusty road and poor ragged people, most of them older men. They were the only people left. Drought in the previous year pushed this tiny farm village to the brink of extinction. She witnessed a mother and baby die from starvation since nobody in the village was willing to spare any food for them. She felt infuriated and impulsively killed everyone by poisoning their wells. Justice was served! She laughed wildly in the storm and drowned herself in the lake. No remorse. 

Upon death, she understood her behavior interfered with those people’s Karmas regardless whether they deserved to die or not. Also the poison in the wells caused much more death than she expected - Several travelers and many animals in the area became collateral damage later on, and that’s all on her. Tears rushed out from her closed eyes, washing away her feeling of shame and regret.

The Karma accumulated from this event had haunted her from lifetime to lifetime - It had caused a lot of physical pain and mental distress. She came to realize that’s the source of her depression and frozen feelings. She described it’s a resentment energy in heart area, in Chinese called “怨气 Yuan Qi”. It’s the collective energy from those people and animals who died from that event, and it became entities that surrounded and blocked her heart chakra for many of her lifetimes until now. That is also why she’s so easily agitated. So I did spiritual release treatment with these entities and helped her to release them into the light. Later after out of the trance, she said in her mind’s eyes she could “see” them leaving like fireworks shooting to the sky. 

In the next chapter I helped her connect with her Higher Mind. She was told that her mission in this life is to be a protector, especially for women and kids. That’s why she was born with an extra sense of fairness and justice, and that theme had been played out through different lifetimes, including the life that she poisoned the whole village for revenge. 

Her soul decided not to have children in this life, since having children accumulate Karma. She said, “I don’t want to collect any more Karma. I just want to pay back whatever I owed and not have to come back again. It’s so painful!” That is in her free will, although it’s still a long way to go. Many people in the world made the same choice, didn’t even realize that’s their soul’s choice to avoid collecting any more Karma in their lifetime. 

Waking up from the trance, she felt lighter and clearer than before. She said it felt like the pictures of the stories came from one side of the brain and the thoughts and ideas came from the other side, and she worked on both sides at the same time. Days later, she texted me again and said she continued to feel lighter. Many things in the past made sense to her now. New nerve links had been created. A new chapter with a clear sense of purpose and pure energy is in perspective.